6 weeks

hi all :)

sorry la tak update, sebab memang takde update pun melainkan keadaan diri yang kurang sihat skit. bukan tak sihat apa pun, biasa la mual2, tak lalu makan dan pening kepala. hmm agaknya kalau timbang badan skrg ni dah susut kot badan.

ubat setakat ni yg perlu saya ambil duphaston (ni pun kadang2 yg TERskip) dan asprin (ni lagi byk terskip sebab kena potong bahagi 4 tablet tu, leceh skit). tapi susu anmum mmg tak pernah miss lagi saya minum sebab ada org tolong bancuhkan heheh dan makan acid foilic.

appointment doc khamis ni. hmm takut, risau, excited. semua perasaan ada. saya tetap doakan yg terbaik ye. harap dapat detect heartbeat dan semua nya selamat dan sempurna. amin.

:(

Belum rezeki saya lagi. Just came back from clinic and doctor confirmed that no hearbeat found and the sac does not grow much.

I can't explain how I actually feel. Tolong jngan ada orang tanya "r u ok?", memang saya rasa nak sepak terajang je orang tu. This few week adalah seperti hari2 yang penuh emosi roller coaster. Sekejap di diatas sekejap dibawah. Siap ada symptom2. Seperti dipermainkan perasaan ini. Astagfirullah.

Of course I am sad because is something that no one can understand if that person doesn't past per the same problem. But I know that I have people who are there to support me. Thank you all.

My husband currently works outstation, my parents are now in UK . I'm alone and I don't know I just think it's ok. I guess I just need to give myself plenty of time and space.

Symptom?

Pengalaman mengambil injection Proluton Depot. Saya dah amik banyak injection, tapi sor far ini la yang paling sakit. Pain and irritation at the injection site mmg agak lama la. Kebas untuk jangkamasa 2 jam.

Side effects I've had is that I am over sensitive about alot of petty details. saya perasan ni sebab lately bila sya tengok movie, drama etc, saya senang sangat mengalirkan air mata. Tengok anak wayang or Pilih Kasih, peserta terkeluar pun saya menangis gila2. Hmmm parah juga tu.

Kalau menangis macam orang ni, mantain cantik ok la jugak kan?

Oh nak update symptoms yang saya alami sekarang. I dont know if it's because of medicine that I take, or it's the symptoms of early pregnancy (amin). Selagi tak nampak heartbeat saya tak berani kata apa2.

1. loya2 pagi tapi tak muntah
2. breasts swell and tenderness; on and off
3. I have to urinate more often.
4. I feel tired.
5. I have headaches; morning and night
6. mood swings; feel angry, sad, or happy for no reason.
7. belly itchy

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