6 weeks

hi all :)

sorry la tak update, sebab memang takde update pun melainkan keadaan diri yang kurang sihat skit. bukan tak sihat apa pun, biasa la mual2, tak lalu makan dan pening kepala. hmm agaknya kalau timbang badan skrg ni dah susut kot badan.

ubat setakat ni yg perlu saya ambil duphaston (ni pun kadang2 yg TERskip) dan asprin (ni lagi byk terskip sebab kena potong bahagi 4 tablet tu, leceh skit). tapi susu anmum mmg tak pernah miss lagi saya minum sebab ada org tolong bancuhkan heheh dan makan acid foilic.

appointment doc khamis ni. hmm takut, risau, excited. semua perasaan ada. saya tetap doakan yg terbaik ye. harap dapat detect heartbeat dan semua nya selamat dan sempurna. amin.

12 days past transfer

Semalam saya buat UPT di rumah. Hari yg ke 11 lepas transfer. Got 2 lines dan tiba2 saya gabra dan gosok mata. Macam tak percaya dan rasa nak nangis pun ada. Terus call klinik and nurse suruh datang buat blood test hari ni.

So now, I just got my blood test result and alhamdulillah got a good news today and have jumped over here :D (tapi tak boleh, lompat dalam hati je)

At 12dp5dt my beta hcg number is 860. My doctor said that I have a really high solid number so I wouldn't need to do 2nd beta. Whatever la doctor saya tak tau nak cakap apa melainkan syukur sangat. (Last IVF cycle diwaktu ini beta hcg saya hanyalah 40!)

Saya bersyukur sangat2 akhirnya doa saya dimakbulkanNya. Sekarang saya kena jaga diri elok2, bedrest setakat mampu sampai next appointment 5 February.

Masih panjang lagi journey ini tapi saya tetap doakan semuanya berjalan lancar.

6 days post transfer

Still in waiting mode, saje rasa nak update.

1 days post transfer (dpt) : nothing at all
2 dpt : tender bbs
3 dpt :moderate cramping, tender bbs (breast), clear vaginal discharge (cvd)
4 dpt : bbs swelling; stomach pains, minor headache, cvd
5 dpt : moderate cramping, bbs sakit sangat2, cvd
6 dpt : moderate cramping, bbs sakit sangat2, cvd

Time keluar clear discharge tu memang saya asyik berulang alik ke toilet check panties. Risau sangat takut keluar kaler coklat or merah. Tapi lepas beberapa hari, I'm getting used to it. Dulu masa fresh IVF cycle keluar discharge maybe disebabkan lebihan Utregestan, at least sekarang ni mungkin sebab hormon sendri yang keluar kan.

Doakan semua selamat. Amin.

Btw, thanks to a friend of mine (u know who u are :)) for being there. I tend to 'mengadu' more to those going to similar situation di mana saya tak kenal mereka di alam realiti, but I feel like I know them forever.

FET today

Assalamualaikum semua. Saya start buat FET hari ni. Frozen Embryo Transfer.

As most of you already know, I actually was partially pregnant off of the fresh IVF cycle (low betas, no HB, no fetal pole) and had a D&C at 8-9 weeks.

I waited for 3-4 cycles after my D&C and so, here I am; on FET natural cycle. There are different between natural cycle and medicated cycle. Pls read here for your kind info.

In my case, my doctor prefers to do natural cycle FETs; meaning that I wouldn't take any meds at all. No estrogen, no progesterone, nothing.

Tapi masa nak tentu kan my ovulation day (1st ovulation day iwill be my Day-1), ada slight problem because this cycle took a longer period, 37 days. Selalunya my cycle took 30-33 days. So this cycle my ovulation is on day 24!

Camne monitor ovulation day? I use predictor test kits (OPKs). I would pee on a stick (for everyday from day 14- day 24!). Memula hampir2 kena abandon this cycle sebab tak dapat double line. At last dapat jugak.


Lepas FET, I'm only given duphaston. And to wait for another 10-12 days for UPT, that can be done by myself. Senang kan?


The FET cycle takes almost as long, but it is so much easier and not nearly as stressful. As for success rates, the difference between fresh and frozen is so slight, and the nurse told me it's easier for some women to do a FET because it's less stress on your body, which can help with implantation.

Tak tau la kan, lain orang lain badan and hormon dia. Wish me the best ya, thanks :)

Hi

Hi :)

It's been a while since I've blogged! Dah 3 bulan bersawang blog ni kan. Just a quick update:

1. Did my D&C @ PMC on 9 September. Waited for a month (or more?) tapi still tak keluar so D&C la jawapannya.

2. Had a prolonged (not that heavy) bleeding after the D&C. I thought the point of a D&C was to get everything left out of my uterus, so I kinda worried takut ada benda tertinggal. Pergi check and my doctor said it's clear and normal. Sounded like everyone's "normal" is different eh?

3. Finally got my 1st period on 7th Oct. And got my 2nd period on 9th September. Hopefully will get my normal cycle back :)

4. My doctor said I can start my my egg/embryo transfer at the next cycle (which is this cycle). Saya rasa saya nak tangguh dulu, bagi mentally and physically prepared dulu. Tapi takut postponed lama2 quality embryo makin menurun pulak kan?

Tu saje nak update :) Saya noticed blog saya masih dilawati (walaupun tak ramai tapi still ada yg menjenguk kan?) walaupun tak berupdate.

Thank you for visiting, sesekali tinggal la komen ye? =)

Perlu D&C

Spotting saya masih belum stop walaupun sudah hampir 3 minggu. Eventho I was just spotting, it came out with clots and minor cramping pains. Met my doctor today, was being told masih ada yolk sac itu dan saya telah disuggest untuk buat D&C. I have thought so.

Tunggu je la esok. Nanti saya update lagi ok.

I am still grieveing for the -ve result where I again failed this IVF attempt, lepas tu pula saya diberitahu pula pasal keperluan D&C ni, and the worst part of it all was I went through it on my own without my husband by my side (outstation).

Semalam saya mimpi anak saya panggil saya. "Mama, mama jangan sedih." sayup2 kedengaran suara tapi wajah tak jelas.

Lyla, mama rindu anak mama. Always. I love you. We will meet one day, I promise.

To wait for natural misscarriage

Had appointment with my doctor today. Since hubby is away, I went there with my mum. Mum kept telling me to accept whatever the result is and next step to be taken; means whether to proceed with D&C, take medicine to miscarry or etc. And guess what he advised?

• ".... unless your pregnancy past ten-eleven weeks, it is VERY unlikely that you would need a D&C.
• Just wait 2-3 weeks and it will come out naturally, unless maybe saya tak bleed sampai habis and still ada saki baki baru terpaksa buat D&C.
• Taking medicine does not help to expedite miscarrying.
• Many women choose to D&C, and that is their choice to end things quickly and move on, but they are usually not neccessary.".

Phew. Lega tak payah D&C (at least for now). I cant imagine going for another procedure dalam masa terdekat ni. I'm kinda sick of all this.

The doctor cakap if let say I miscarry during puasa, I can puasa sebab it's not period. He's non-malay btw. Terror dia. To double check, pergi sini.